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Sun, 19 May 2013 20:40:00 -0400

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Sun, 21 Apr 2013 11:43:03 -0400

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This is me sometimes.

Update Day 2

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 19:56:14 -0400

What can I say about this? I took my first Adderall Sunday afternoon and it was like opening my eyes. I saw things I’d never seen before and I wasn’t bouncing mentally all over the place.

I’m on regular Adderall because my insurance company in it’s infinite wisdom has decided that a trial of regular Adderall is obligatory before being prescribed the long acting Adderall XR. Regular Adderall is a pill, not a capsule like Adderall XR and the only reason I can think of for this is that you can split the pills since usually there is some jiggling around of the dosage when it’s first started.

And I don’t like regular Adderall pills. It gives you thud over the head for the first hour or so if you take it without eating something first.(Maybe because I’m not used to it yet?) Then it tapers off rather rapidly . Adderall XR is a sustained release capsule that lasts for about 9-10 hours without the ups and downs. I like roller coasters but not in my head.

I do notice a lot of benefits. I’m not wiggling around my desk with my feet flapping wildly underneath the desk where no one can see them. I’m not craving the oral stimulation of gum chewing or chewing on a mint. I can actually focus on my work without intensely concentrating. I actually found quite a few mistakes in my work that I have made lately and corrected them. i also don’t feel “spacey” and am living in my head and feeling paralyzed a lot less. I may even write a bit later on in the week

But most of all the terrible anxiety I have felt for the last year or so has gone. I’m able to relax and not obsess over my worries. Even doing my taxes yesterday was somewhat a breeze (they are simple anyway) and I didn’t go “woe is me” for hours before doing them. I just sat down and did them.

I guess I’m a true geek now… ADHD is almost like a badge of honor among us and now I can winge about the pros and cons between Adderall, Strattera and Focal.

a very nice piece of french toast: help-the-fandoms-have-me: WHOADO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REALIZEDIf...

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 22:06:11 -0400

a very nice piece of french toast: help-the-fandoms-have-me: WHOADO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REALIZEDIf...:

help-the-fandoms-have-me:

WHOA

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REALIZED

If there were hunters out there like Sam and Dean, or a secret organization called Torchwood, or the Doctor showing up, or fairies or wizards or demigods or whatever,

the ONE thing the would keep it completely secret

is…

This should have been obvious a long time ago.

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 19:49:52 -0400

Had a revelation about 2 weeks ago…

As some of you know (or don’t know) I’ve been seeing a therapist for the past few months for panic attacks and anxiety. My heart would start pounding, I’d feel faint and an overwhelming feeling would engulf me. What most of you don’t know is that I have battled depression since I was a teenager. I’d go on crying jags for days get worse when my Dad died the Christmas break of my freshman year at UNC. I

Depression hit me again after I graduated and almost paralyzed me. I found a job, got fired and joined the military and had a great time in Monterrey, CA at Ft. Ord, met my husband, got married, left the Army and became a spouse and Mom. It hit again when my marriage broke up and went to live with my Mom and it hit again and again when she got really sick and I felt really helpless. She passed away and I eventually got better. I did get medication for the depression about 10 years ago and it has made a world of difference but I still had problems.

As most of you know my daughter has Asparger’s Syndrome and was initially diagnosed as ADHD so I’ve had a lot of education in the matter. Two weeks ago I was talking to my therapist (after seeing her for a few months) and she suggested that I do a quick check list for ADD. Well, I batted .1000.

It should have been no surprise to me. I’ve had a sense of something wrong my whole life. I never fit in at school or any where else. I was a nerd and geek even before those terms were popular. I always was so absorbed in a book that I often didn’t know what was going on around me, I’m smart but always under achieving. A solid B+ to A student with no effort and ranked 10th in my class of 250 what so ever but still felt very inadequate and socially inept. I ended up a loner.

I’ve coped myself in lots of ways, always putting my keys and in the same place. exercising like a fiend, making mental lists and becoming super organized and responsible but I see my failures too. Becoming “spacey” at times, having problems with work (mainly proofreading,not following through on something, doing something impulsively etc). I’ll go on a writing spree and then all of a sudden abandon writing for months. When I have to sit for a long I get fidgetty. My foot wiggles a mile a minute under my desk and I feel trapped and have the feeling I need to bolt when I’m forced to sit for hours, Gads, even my daughter’s therapist thinks I meet the criteria just from observing me over the years

. I also don’t relax very well. Today it was raining and cold outside and the house was clean. I had a real problem sitting myself down and “doing nothing”. I have survived today, mainly because I have a bit of a cold.

I’m going to see a psychiatrist on Wednesday afternoon and see if he thinks I need medication. It has been nice knowing finally about the “elephant” . I’ve been more a peace with myself than I have been in years.

usatoday: Not many people are taking the cannolis. Not a...

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 20:49:55 -0400

usatoday:

Not many people are taking the cannolis.

Not a dessert person but when I do indulge its either ice cream or chocolate cake or both together .. .icecream cake

usatoday: betype: that’s life. (by RubySoho13) Phew. I make...

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 20:48:41 -0400

usatoday:

betype:

that’s life. (by RubySoho13)

Phew.

I make a lot of them.

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Fri, 08 Mar 2013 09:43:20 -0500

pyroflasher: daughterofmulan: Our teacher didn’t come to class...

Fri, 08 Mar 2013 09:42:56 -0500

pyroflasher:

daughterofmulan:

Our teacher didn’t come to class today so we spent the first twenty minutes doing a seance to call the ghost of Steve Jobs.

Our offering was a bagel and all of our Apple products and we made a pentagram out of people’s laptops.

that’s me on the top right.

She forgets to mention we had a legitimate psychic in the room.

coolchicksfromhistory: The plan for the March 13, 1913 suffrage...

Fri, 08 Mar 2013 09:41:44 -0500

coolchicksfromhistory:

The plan for the March 13, 1913 suffrage parade in Washington, DC.

"Half of writing history is hiding the truth."

Sat, 02 Mar 2013 11:06:33 -0500

“Half of writing history is hiding the truth.”

- Mal (via whedonesqued)

I was just having a discussion about this with my 13 year old son as to why he finds US History boring. I said it is because it is whitewashed and he might find our actual history more interesting.

(via aboleyn24) Uncovering the truth is what makes history interesting.

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:11:44 -0500

aboleyn24: hgprime: “The truth is I’m a dork. I collected...

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 07:22:57 -0500

aboleyn24:

hgprime:

“The truth is I’m a dork. I collected comics. I still love cartoons. I’d rather be at home on a Friday night than out at some club… My sense of humor is that of a geek. My likes and dislikes are that of a geek. I’ve memorized every crappy sci-fi movie there is.”

Which is why we love our captain.

And this is why I love Nathsn.

phyi: Queen - Somebody To Love Figured it would be super...

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 07:19:49 -0500

phyi:

Queen - Somebody To Love

Figured it would be super appropriate considering it is almost Valentine’s Day.

So... Dragon*Con and Ed Kramer.

Sat, 09 Feb 2013 08:51:09 -0500

elfgrove:

Colossal asshat Ed Kramer is in the news again, which of course, causes folk to bring up his connection to Dragon*Con. This causes some folk to demand everyone should boycott Dragon*Con (in order to punish Kramer and magically force Dragon*Con to “get rid of” Ed Kramer).

Things are not that easy or simple, and I’m going to cover why a little bit here. But the key take-away is that this is not a situation where Dragon*Con has ignored, harbored, or otherwise protected within their power structure an accused child molester for 12 years. The truth is they’ve been trying unsuccessfully to cut the last ties to him for 12 years, and he has no actual power at or presence within the con itself.

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quotesqr: Don’t give people what they want, give them what they...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 10:02:18 -0500

quotesqr:

Don’t give people what they want, give them what they need.

- Joss Whedon

aboleyn24: kierstenkrum: You’re cuteness overload for the...

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 09:58:04 -0500

aboleyn24:

kierstenkrum:

You’re cuteness overload for the weekend…

meowingt-n:

Omg

Is this sweet or is the kitty tenderizing the rabbit?

Had a great dinner at #TirnaOgg last night. Guiness braised brisket sandwich with spinach, red...

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 10:11:46 -0500

Had a great dinner at #TirnaOgg last night. Guiness braised brisket sandwich with spinach, red cabbage & apple butter.Different combo but it really was good.

The stuff of dreams.

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 10:07:31 -0500

The stuff of dreams.

Great local business #RaleighNC and great vinyl selection.

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 10:04:04 -0500

phyi:

The people at Schoolkids Records are too damn nice.